^ On repeat today for me because it’s so so calming and nice. Maybe listen now while you read everything below?
Again, no, I will not wait for daylight
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I know I said “tho” twice and I don’t mind
***COOL***
More Sylvan Esso 4 u
Highly recommend ^
I had it all planned out before you met me
Was gonna leave early and so swiftly
Maybe in a fire or crash off a ravine
People would weep, "How tragic, so early"
I was gonna die young
Now I gotta wait for you, honey
It's not like I got hurt or broken
Or ruined on the way
It's an ache and it shines through me
A swallow in a cage
We're as big as the ocean
I could hear all of your devotion
I would be more than a small human with her head
Pressed against your mapped emotions
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Yesterday I said no to something (an artistic opportunity I really RULLY wanted VERY MUCH TO DO because . . . my . . . intuition or gut or heart or self
OR
WHATEVER
told me it wasn’t right. It was painful. I cried TEARS when I realized I was going to say no
I had to wipe my eyes at my desk. I had to look at the ceiling and the hooooo calming exhale.
I WAS CONFUSED
about my strong feelings. How hard it felt to realize
that the thing
CLLLLINGING to
the “missed” opportunity was my EGO and I shouldn’t let it call the shots when I can imagine anything else at the wheel.
I LOVE YOU
when I started therapy tho I literally told her I didn’t POSSESS an “inner voice” tho?
Liiike
how sad!
So have empathy for yourself
I know it can be hard but it can maybe be easier
OK AGAIN
I LOVE YOU
BYE
P.S. Think of this as a zine, not a therapy Instagram. Yea. COOL